Videos!

Meteroid Prime 3, fun times :D

Santa mark

Say it!

Dinner

Mmm

Kath afraid

Terrifying kath with my new phone

I can't help being angry when I'm furious

SO.
ANGRY.
RIGHT.
NOW.

I want to stab something, anything. Myself even because I'm so bloody angry.
I hate you because you keep assuming you're my friend and you're NOT.
I hate you because you keep trying desperately to be my friend and I DON'T LIKE YOU.
I hate you because you're being fucking PAID to do something I DESPERATELY WANT TO DO and you fucking RIP ARTWORK.




Deep breaths people.


Let the love in.

Morosity

Thoughts that cross my mind when I'm not really thinking about much tend to be on the miserable and downright depressing side of things.
My current train of thought is (as it has been many many times before) the futility of love when confronted with life. Love would be fantastic if it weren't for life smugly tripping it up at every given opportunity. Rather like that bastard who used to make fun of you in highschool, making what is already hard considerably more difficult.

Love works is this:

1. Meet someone special
2. Fall desperately in love with them
3. Get engaged
4. Get married
5. Have Children
6. Live happily ever after

However, unfortunately, life works like this:

1. Meet someone special
2. Fall in love
3. They don't like you
4. Repeat 1 and 2 many many times but one time you don't result in the third option and might actually find someone who likes you. If not continue 1, 2 and 3 until you are old and grey.
   
5. Fight like buggery to keep said person
6. Maybe get married
7. Maybe have children
8. Maybe get divorced
9. If you do get married and have children you will have the pleasure of watching your poor child go through similar if not worse failings in love than you did
10. Then you have the pleasure of knowing that one day in the future you are likely to watch your soulmate, the person for whom you are continuing to exist, die. Or they'll watch you die. Or your child will die before you do and it will be more painful than anything you've ever experienced.
    
11. And then you'll die too. Alone.

Yes I have taken my pill today.
My dad doesn't want me going on Mirtazapine until I've seen a consultant psychiatrist and if they say I need it then I will go on it. Personally I'd rather just have a higher dose of Citalopram.

Things I want right now:

• Ceri
• A House of my own
• A Kitten
  

Changes

Went to the doctors today.
Yay I don't have Breast Cancer, I just had Galactorrhea brought on by my Citalopram.
And as they don't seem to be working any more I'm switching over to Mirtazapine... I think that's how it's spelt anyway.
One of the side effects is weight gain which I'm kinda miffed about and hoping I don't get along with increased appetite. I'm just going to have to restrict my intake severly to make sure I don't have a repeat of what happened when I was on The Pill.

Have been very depressed recently so I hope a change in medication will help things.

Am going on a diet soon. Janey's doing the whole weight watchers thing and I'm gonna be following the same core diet as her. As I'm now 14 Stone 196lbs for those who don't understand stone. I'd like to be 11/12 ideally. Which is back what I was before I ballooned.
Don't want to be ming any more. Want to be sexy.

Goals:

• Piece my head back together
  
• Lose weight
• Feel less depressed

RIP

My dear Wacom tablet is dead.

I am a sad, sad panda.



I don't have the money to get a new one.

No more digital art for a long long time.

:(

Updates

I'm going to try and keep this up fairly regularly as I think it would be a good output for some of the random thoughts inside my hair (I meant head but hair sounds more interesting :D ). There will be art updates here too.

What am I working on currently?





Both are in progress and... well have been for some time. The colouring style takes a long time to do and I get quickly bored. You may recognise the images from the previous journal.
I've also got some various other sketches that I will probably upload here later.

My Darling Ceri came over for the weekend arriving on his scooter. Still makes me want a Vespa. Mostly for the style of it though methinks, which would be somewhat ruined by helmet and other safety equiptment. Maybe I'll just get a car when I can.

More updates later.

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Esk for Kath

The beginnings of a sketchblog

Ohnoes D:

There are many many things that I don't finish for one reason or another. Here's some I'd like to finish sometime >_>


Ki'Rahn probably the main character in the stories I never tell and I rarely ever draw him, not like this leastways.


Ki'Rahn is here as the lion demon thing, and the floating pan is D'Retihl Ra. Again characters from the stories I never tell.


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Trying to draw the "wall" scene from Doomsday of Dr Who. Lawl Tennants fayse.


An attempt at a revision of http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/19644818


Chasing cars by Snow Patrol makes me want to draw this.


Is what I'm working on currently http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/25305965 these chars

Valentines blah

Huuuge box, it's as long as my arm



Roseinavase



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